the story started off when we were talking about the guy who sits beside me for work... his name is john.

so i was saying that john still hasn't opened up to me and that i was really bored with talking to him. then my friend blamed for john not wanting to talk. she said it's because i teased him incessantly and called him woodblock which frightened him. she was blaming me and scolding me like it was my fault. i told her i was only trying to make him talk. she said i'm only making fun of him, not talking to him. i told her that i have nothing to say if she insisted on this.

second conflict started when she claimed that nobody waits for her. so i'm a nobody. i told her at least i waited for her. she didn't care and continue to say that we're always leaving her out and i wouldn't understand because we're in the same room but she's the odd one out. i'm not even doing the same things as the rest. i guess she sort of blame me for being able to be with them. that's childish because if i were her, i'd just make friends and move on. get a life.

fine, then i wanted to go to the library and she wanted to tag along. i told her i want to go jurong library then she said she want to go queenstown library and asked me to go with her. it's alright with me because i only wanted to return my books. then she started bragging about how nice she was to accompany wherever i wanted to go. hello, i didn't even ask you to come to the library with me. and by the way, the others don't even give a damn about her except me.

what can i do? what can i do???

at night, i was chatting with yan and jane about fahrenheit. everybody has their own likes!!! =) so we can assure each other that our tastes are different and we won't snatch each other's boyfriend. not like we'll snatch anyway. =P

jane and yan were teasing me because my msn display picture only has a 'silly duck' as what jane has called it. the 2 of them were so obsessed with their respective fahrenheit members as their display pictures. jane said i have the best screen with that 2 pictures and i spoilt the atmosphere with my duck. haha! serves them right, the duck shall stay! =P

i found da dong's blog! i found da dong's blog! i found da dong's blog! ok. i got it from chuz. =P he rocks!

they went to watch fahrenheit today!!!!!!!!! yan said she likes da dong after seeing him. she told me he's superbly friendly and will hold his fans hands!!! i want too! i want to tell him to jia you and to give him winter melon tea because da dong sounds similar to dong gua and i can't possibly give him winter melon, so i might as well give him winter melon tea. unfortunately, they can't accept food stuffs. =( i had to work too so i didn't go for their autograph session. plus my besties couldn't get their autographs due to disorganized queue done by the management. a little disappointed but i don't blame them for not getting the autographs. in the first place, i couldn't go anyway. =) no worries, chuz! we'll go together the next time round and say jia you to them. together!

anyway, i'm glad he's amiable as some stars are totally indifferent towards their fans. =) i'm so happy!!!

my colleagues told me s.h.e went shopping at takashimaya today. they were looking at lucieno shoes, which meant that if i were working, i'd be able to see them face to face from a short distance because lucieno is beside bonia!!! such a pity because i work mid-shift while they went in the morning.

nevertheless, s.h.e's concert was superbly high and exciting. the audiences all stood up from the start of the concert. but then, if the first row stood, the rest had to stand because they wouldn't be able to see. but still, i think the audiences were extremely sporting as they waved and sang along with s.h.e! =)

so i managed to breath the same air with fahrenheit! actually i only want to be in the same space as da dong! =) da dong rocks my world! =) they sang 'ai dao' and 'chao xi huan ni'. so nice!

the whole concert was filled mostly with fast songs which pushed us to the greatest height. i'm so glad i came! =)

today's a tiring day, perhaps because i'm aware that today is the last working day of the week. not exactly the last working day for me, but i am feeling a little exhausted.

anyway, i worked late again and customers weren't leaving, so i couldn't leave. andre valentino had so many customers that i had to help them serve. i don't know whether daniel was angry with me or not because i helped valentino to serve customers instead of serving our own. but then, there weren't many of our customers anyway. he didn't say anything so i assume he's not angry but i know he didn't want me to help them because he kept asking me to look for the promoter of valentino. afterall, he is the one paying my wage.

i'm totally exhausted. if i can't take it, i'll quit. but i've just learnt something. i felt indignified to leave just like that. there're many things going on now and i'm so confused. i'd get it sorted out and i'll be fine.

jia you! =)

today was better than yesterday. i finally had some work to do and i checked the data. =) found lots of mistakes. it's stressful to check these errors because the supervisors wanted you to write down your name. they could check everything and point out your mistakes. that's scary.

as for my sales job, i asked sandy to leave first since daniel left early yesterday too. she was worried that i wouldn't be able to cope alone. there's always a first time and i had to learn, isn't it? i still think they think i can't do a lot of stuffs, which is why daniel kept repeating and confirming whether i know how to take the shoes, how to read the article codes (which are the numbers on every pair of shoes), how to climb the racks and all that. linda said, to them, they'd think that we're idiots because we only know how to study. our life experience is a lot lesser than theirs, which is true, but sometimes, i suppose it's better to act stupid amongst these people than to become a common enemy.

anyway, i wanted to go home with eileen and prayed that customers would not come at the very last minute. yay! i could leave. but wait! i forgot to put the box inside the cupboard, so i went back to put it back again. ok. sometimes i do think that i'm an idiot, and thus, i couldn't go home with eileen. how sad. but after yesterday, i don't exactly feel that depressed going home alone late at night. i guess i've gotten used to it.

today is the first time i work till takashimaya closes. it's a lonely feeling where nobody talked to me during work. i don't like to work on wednesdays because there aren't any people of my same age except maybe for eileen, but she's forever so busy. my colleague left early because he had been there for the whole day. i felt like a flower which had lost its support and nobody cared.

i went for work for 3 hours and in the meantime, there were no customers. just when it was near closing time, 3 customers popped out from nowhere and wanted to buy bonia shoes. only bonia ok? then i had to serve them and i panicked because they were at different places. the bell rang and it was closing time. i had to be fast.

when i left, the department store was empty. it was so eerie to be at a huge shopping mall by yourself when the lights were closed. suddenly, i felt like crying because nobody said a single byebye to me. in my entire life, i had been filled with love and concern that i was never forgotten. but in my working life, i learnt everything the hard way. how hard it was to work in an environment with no one to talk to, how to serve customers and, literally, to fall down and pick yourself up again.

at this point of time, i would always grumble and blamed myself for not quitting. i shouldn't be doing this kind of job which pays a miserable $5 per hour because i'll be going to university. i should be doing solely administrative work or teach tuition which can earn a dozen times more than this. i felt sorry for myself. that i hurt myself and starved myself because of this bloody job. i'm caught in a dilemma. this job teaches me all about about life. how realistic life is, that people will stab you at the back and gossips will roll and worsen, how your life is determined by the people up there with positions higher than you, how to sweet talk so that people will buy your things and how realistic it is that the rich can trample on the poor just because of their wealth. it's just life. and i admit there's so much to life that i haven't exactly mastered in a week.

i stayed on... because i want to experience what really is life.

we continued punching holes and printing stuffs today. we started playing games so obviously that the supervisors had to find work for us to do in case the heads came down. started checking some stuffs but it was totally boooring!~

anyway, i went out with my besties after work for dinner! =) we went to rocky master and we sat down there and dilly dally until the waitress took their menu over and slam it across our faces. fine. we should order something first. i seriously didn't want to think about any extra ingredients that they'd add inside our food judging from their darkened faces.

according to my experience, rocky master's dessert is not that fantastic. try the blueberry cheesecake if you must but the others don't taste that fabulous or look appealing. all in all, it's just my little judgement.

i bought fahrenheit's cd!!! i don't know why the hell i bought their cd but my wang da dong is so cute!!! just ignore the other 3.



nevertheless, the songs in the cd is a little disappointment. other than the hits, the other songs aren't really that nice. sorry to say, their singing skills are so-so only. whatever, my wang da dong!!! love him to bits! guys who can make me laugh are so captivating!!!

first day of work at immigration. =) we reached lavender too early and many people were queueing up outside. i think they're trying to migrate here. see, singapore is flooded with too many foreigners and singaporeans are leaving their own country, thinking the pasture outside is greener.

anyway, we reported for work at lavender before going to redhill. i swear the place is so deserted that i thought we were in a dessert. the map doesn't even show the right roads and buildings and we walked into a dead end. then we figured out the way and the side gate was locked and the security guard refused to open the door. so we had to walk back to the dead end and went in from the other entrance which was hidden so discreetly like a mouse.

first day of work result in me trying to talk to a woodblock. i've finished asking my colleague everything about his personal life. he's probably the quietest person i've ever ever met. there wasn't any work for us to do, so we printed stuffs and punched holes. that's the only thing i did today at work. how 'interesting'.

so disgusting. i can stand there for so long and customers can consider for a very long time as to whether they want to buy the shoes or not, but when my senior, comes over and promotes the shoes a bit, then the women will buy! how unfair. just like when my friend told me that the cashiers only talk to the guys or those who suck up to them, the customers only buy when guys say they look nice in the shoes. i was telling linda that no matter how much we say they look nice in them, the impact will still be so much lighter than when the guy promoters tell them. how realistic. i just don't understand, why do they need guys' assurance when they buy shoes???

plus, my blue black has expanded. the whole inner side of my left feet is almost purple in colour.

我可以
寄　没有地址的信
这样的情绪　有种距离
你　放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情　能不能说给我听

雨　下得好安静
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景　有我爱你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　
我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你

寄　没有地址的信
这样的情绪　有种距离
Ho-Oh Woo~
你　放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情　
能不能说给我听

雨　下得好安静
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣 Oh~
幸福 它真的不容易
在你的背景　有我爱你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　
我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你 Ho~ Woo

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你 Ho-Oh

this song is not exactly a new song but i still think it's very sweet. my friends say, we are already 19, we shouldn't go around chasing idols like xiao mei mei because 18 is very different from 19. somehow i feel that the older i get, the more i like these unrealistic scenes which these songs depict. probably it's a form of escapism to let me know that someone is out there, caring secretly for me. it's a kind of hope and belief to spur this mundane life on. =) oh!~ how sweet~

today is my off day! =) yay! so i went out with my besties and we looked at horoscope books! they say i'll have a good year ahead! =) how happy! actually they did say bad stuffs, but i only remember the good ones, so i think i will have a very good year!!! muahahaha!

then we spent 4 hours at coffee bean drawing out almost everything from maple story for each other to guess. we really need to polish our drawing skills!!! jane keeps drawing circles and circles. the first one is for us to guess jr sentinel, the second one is air bubble and third one is mesos. -_-"" fine!

my left leg turned purple, totally bruised. it's quite gross. it only became purple today and the patch's expanding. my leg's just like a pig's leg now. oh dear. and yan was commenting that blue blacks came about because the blood vessels are clotted and she wondered if we were to poke that patch with a needle, all the blood might just burst out. GROSS!

anyway, i hope there's no war today!

project superstars' champions are out. how unexciting and expected and indignifying. so angry. daren actually won the guys' champions. this simply shows what people can do to gain fame and to reach their personal goals. to change your lifestyle and to change your language just to win something. whatever.

i didn't sleep well last night because of the tuition assignment. i don't want to be a liar and i really pity that girl for finding such a lousy tuition agency. i hope none of my friends go there.

so i was half conscious throughout the whole of today. and today has to be the busiest day in my entire life.

early in the morning, i received a call from recruit express. the redhill job is taking far too much a time to reply to my work application. she still hasn't gotten in touch with the people from the hr department. then i saw the message from wenz asking me to pass my certificates to her as her aunt had managed to book 2 places at the ica for linda and me. yea. hip hip hooray! =) but we were so confused with the meeting time to pass our certs and application forms and all that. then i also had to message rena's tutor to reject the assignment and to arrange a time to pass her back the books.

so i had to go to work with all these things and i was alone for the first time of my work as daniel was off and sandy went for lunch. then something terrible has to happen. so many customers and i panicked. that particular customer wanted this pair of crystal shoes and they were placed at the top rack! so i had to climb to the top and i thought i was tall enough to reach the box when i weren't and I FELL! from the top to the bottom. disastrous. the left leg hurts and the whole calf's quite swollen.

somemore? i forgot to write article number, which is the number of the shoe, on a receipt. how dumb can i be.

then i had to arrange to meet linda to take her certificates and all. and i didn't have time to eat my dinner because i had to scan and send to wenz. then i had to meet rena's tutor at 10pm but i was so freakingly tired and burnt out that i decided to meet her tomorrow morning instead. thank god she's nice and agreed to it.

my life can only go for the better.

went out with my besties again. =) we had dinner plus a session of psychological tests and took neoprints!!! sometimes, i don't understand what's all the interest in psychological tests for? is it to reassure our own personality or to let us know ourselves better? they can't change and won't change a thing. it's kind of meaningless. but sometimes, they do reveal the hidden trait in you. that's the dilemma again.

after that, i met up with rena's tutor to get the chinese books. was supposed to be a chinese literature tuition teacher to an international school student. i found out that the tuition agency lied to the student and said that i am a full-time tutor, which apparently, isn't the case. it even claimed that i am an university graduate and demanded $50 per hour, of which the agency wanted half of it as commission. that's ultra demanding and mean. it's easy to know that i am not an university graduate because i don't know a thing about university life and syllabus. the agency hopes that i will teach the girl through the phone which addes to my indignance to teach her.

i shouldn't accept this assignment because it's immoral and if anything really goes wrong, the tuition agency can jolly well shift the blame to me. on the other hand is a $25 per hour salary. it is indeed tempting. i can fake my way through and earn that $25 per hour and i could claim a 10 hour pay from her just by reading her work and textbooks at home by myself.

but still, i can't do it.

because of this thing, i can't sleep now. it's full on my mind, so heavy. forget it.

second day of work. i forgot to bring my wallet home yesterday as i left it with my friend. =P what about how i came home? i had placed the ez link card in my bag, separated from my wallet, so i didn't even notice i didn't bring it home. how blur.

so i couldn't go for lunch and there was some miscommunications about the lunch time. so we left a colleague there alone and she sort of 'talked' to me. she didn't scold but i guessed my friend was quite pissed.

sunday night. so unhappening.

work was tough. it's the peak period in a week and i'm still new. i don't know everything and most of the people. i even had problems handling my own customers. they either came in flocks or none at all. at least there's some comfort in my seniors who taught me a lot. oh. by the way, i'm selling shoes for bonia, a brand which i haven't heard of till i started working.

today's sales was great. i managed to sell out a few pairs too! =) i can't figure out why people can spend hundreds bucks on one pair of shoes, but they just do. they probably have too much money to spare.

my legs hurt but that's probably what will happen on the first day of sales job. working on this job is very different from being an administrator or accountant. you get to face the customers frontline and you have to persuade them that your goods are the best. this tricks me the most as i am not really good at promoting stuffs. like what my senior said, "there's always the first time." thank god both of them are very nice to me. =D

rain rain rain... my interview was supposed to be at 10am, but i reached at 9.20am. oh dear. i couldn't possibly loiter around redhill for 40 minutes, right? so i went in with a very thick face and waited for my interview. i found that place sort of intimidating, but i have no choice now. i have to start work soon if not i might just end up jobless for the whole holidays. let me just face everything with a positive mindset and it isn't that bad!

lunch at the marketplace with yan and jane. teaching doesn't seem as simple as it is. not being able to punish the kids makes it impossible to educate them efficiently. seems that they have a wholly different experience from anybody. =)

hopefully i'll get the job!!!

that dumb agent. anyway, she was inefficient, rude, nasty, lazy, pushed blame to people and lots more mean stuff. whatever. i'm going to ditch her. why should i work for her when i don't like her?

in search of black top, black pants and black shoes. i can't seem to find any, but i found this cute little thing. it's so small but fully depicts the features of the real vending machines.

so cute!!! i like the 'new' paper on the machine. i'm supposed to paste it myself and all the stickers, even the dog inside the transparent plastic! its height is shorter than our handphone. the small balls can be opened up too!!! how cute. there's a small coin-like plastic inside the small ball and you're supposed to paste a sticker on the 'coin' too! the balls will roll out when you turn the small knob. i swear it's totally like the big vending machines except i don't have to place coins into this machine. they allow you to stack them up if you have more than one of them, just like the way they do in real life!!! =D

went to register for basic driving test, but it's such a pity yan's mum is still adamant about not letting her join us for the test. =( we can be her tuition teacher next time. =) this shall be the first time i'm going to study after a levels. i have sort of forgotten how to study.

watched fahrenheit on youtube just now. the yu le bai fen bai, with them in it, hosted by xiao zhu was so funny. and i found out that 汪大东 a.k.a 汪东城 is in f.i.r's fly away mv!!! no wonder i found him familiar. he seemed to have shoot a lot of advertisements and mv and 4 shows. he's very cute! i don't know why i like him, but i do. HAHA!!! he makes me laugh, brighten up my day and let me feel relaxed. love him!


oh my god. the picture at the bottom is so cute!~

firstly, i went to bukit batok driving centre, bbdc, to register for driving test. everything's in a mess because we were there for the first time today. so i didn't bring my i/c and couldn't register. what the heck. nobody told me i have to bring it and ez link card couldn't be used. fine. i'll come again on saturday then.


on my way to another destination, this little brat kicked my slipper while i was boarding the bus and my slipper dropped down the steps. and he went, "what the hell." come on man, you are only a sec 1 kid and i'm already out of school. what the hell is not for you to say in front of me and i should be the one to say that since you are the one who made my slipper drop. what can we do? kids nowadays...


forget about the unhappy incident. i went to watch 'night at the museum'. =) it's a treat!

yep, the movie's nice. actually, i don't really think it's worth the time to watch it since there isn't much plot. but if it's just for laughs, it's probably the movie.

it's a public holiday. we went out in search of a set of sofas. ikea's sofas seem to have been there for a long duration already. my dad and my arms started itching after sitting on several. perhaps they hadn't cleaned the sofa sheets or wipe the surfaces. so beware of the consequences of bouncing on the sofas at ikea.

the meatballs and chicken wings there were nice! it's a must-eat if you go there. =)

yummy yummy!~

it's a brand new year. i wish that i'll be able to stay happy for the whole year round! =D and i hope to save lots of money!

very early morning, which means like 12am, we were still playing some ultra old childhood games and certain board games at yan's house. how time flies! we're 19 this year. in the past, i'd think that 19 is an age which is totally free and exciting. now, i still don't think we're granted the full freedom yet.




reminisces aside, we played almost all the games and listened to the same cd like a dozen time. the worst game today, voted by me alone, was the mahjong where i lost all the tokens and were even in debt till the last game. =D and i took the lead to sleep!~

10am, we woke up to play scrabble and then, off we went to have breakfast at mcdonald's before opg came to meet us for a kbox session! it's heavily subsidised by him! =D the place's so freakingly freezing that we nearly hibernated in there. hot beverages didn't help either. oh my god!

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